The Fast Car is Never Enough
Originally published on 4-13-11
The reason you know you can handle it, is because it’s already happening.
I’ve never really been the “woe is me” kind of person, and I rarely think “fuck, when it rains, it pours.” More often than not, I handle situations one at a time, or am able to stay in a space of gratitude -- even if it’s for something very small, like seeing a fire engine red cardinal while jogging, or being thankful for having easy access to my favorite of all drinks, champagne.
But sometimes, life gets overwhelming and I like everyone else, just want to: implode or explode or hide or run away, or drink lots of champagne! (As a side note, alcohol is a depressant, and I find that when I’m my most fragile, it’s best if I monitor what I eat and drink very carefully. There’s no sense in being depressed and getting plastered and being more depressed as you’re drinking yourself into a stupor, or eating an entire cake and being pissed at yourself for eating poorly and gaining weight. Sometimes, it’s harder than others, but do yourself a favor and don’t compound the issue.) Moving along.
As I’ve said before, I believe everything happens for a reason, and so, when you feel like if ONE more ball drops (your car gets a flat, your ex-boyfriend finds a new girlfriend, your dog contracts allergies and you’d rather spend the $100 on something else, a deal you’ve been working on falls through, the stock you invested in drops, your coworker goes Emilio Barzini on you) you’ll just lose it, and then… ONE more ball does drop, know the reason these things are happening, is because you can handle it.
It doesn’t mean that when, at first you feel like you’re rolling with the punches and then you feel like Holyfield’s ear on the other side of Tyson’s teeth, you can’t be sad, or mad or frustrated, but it does mean that you can handle it. You can walk through it and end up on the other side. “The point is to go through the fires and be refined.” –Oprah.
Listen, it takes a village to raise me and since I try to surround myself with strong people, I’m ok with that. I’ve learned that love, coming from all sides, God, aunts, friends, parents, pets, mentors, and all angles, is awesome.
When all you want to do is run and disappear, ask for the help and the support of those around you, I’m sure they would be happy to send the love your way. Be accepting and let their love in. You don’t need to run away from your problems, you can stay right where you are and be just fine. You know, at the end of Tracy Chapman’s song, Fast Car, the fast car…isn’t enough.
I think if you are open and aware, this world is designed to bring out the best in you.